awww.......

my first day free of the ball and chains of school. it feels fabulous. almost a month off, to clear my head of textbook psychology. oh yes. i did well this semester, 6 A's and one lil B+. so life is good. my hard work paid off.
i have been going strong for two and half years straight. through every summer... my eye on the prize. and it is right around the corner. it really is skipping stones from here on out.
I am pretty happy with myself.
i am going to continue to work through my family outreach company, taking care of my same kiddo, who i love and adore! i am going to be recieving another 6 credits through school, flexible hours, as well as making decent money. so blessed i have this job. it has its hand on so many aspects of my life, in so many wonderful ways.
i am starting with the campus newspaper, the 'exponent.' i should be hearing from them sometime in january, but sound like i am getting my own column and the opportunity to publish some photography as well! will be purchasing a nice digital canon here in the next few days, not sure the exact model, but its gonna kick serious bootay, so lots of great articles and photos to come.... i am thinking an outdoors column would be prime. spend my saturdays stompin around outside, getting my adventures published, AND PAID! sweet! i would volunteer, but give me a computer and an office and a paycheck, even better :)
i have a great friend coming into town this evening, he's bringing me ELK MEAT! yes, a friend of mine for sure! a fun couple days planned, ice climbing....getting comfy with this vacation thing...
Another great friend coming down from columbia falls in a few days to pick me up and TAKE ME HOME! she is so wonderful, and i have a nice meal planned for us sunday. stuffed acorn squash, an nice organic bottle of red.... downtown for some dessert.... she is one of those friends that i love like a sister and knows where my gut wrenching belly laughs lay, and she finds them every time i see her!
Then hooooooooooommmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! FINALLY!
monday is the winter solstice, the shortest day of the year ! another nice dinner with my 'curb your enthusiasm' friends back home, and i will be recieving my new camera!!!!!
the best part....
is my sister is pregnant and about ready to pop. her due date is december 30th but we are all thinking she will give birth early. i am telling the little baby boy to wait for auntie julia, I WANT TO BE THERE! take pictures, offer support, watch the miracle of life. so many photos to come of this occasion.
many friends to see, many good times to be had, no worries on documentation, that is so my style.

trust love

sow love in response to hate

Christian: God is love; you are God's and children of the most high

Shinto: Love is the receptacle of the Lord

Zoroastrian: Man is the beloved of the Lord and you should love him in return

Judaic: Thou shall love the Lord thy God with all thy heart and thy neighbor as thyself

Sikh: God will regenerate those in whose hands there is love

Buddha: Let a man cultivate toward the whole world a heart of love

Tao: Heaven arms with love those it would not see destroyed

Islam: Love is this, that thou shouldst account thyself very little and God very great

Baha'i: If you lovest me not, my love can no wise reach thee

Confucian: To love all men is the greatest benevolence

Hindu: One can best worship the Lord through Love

choc-o-late

my favorite time of the day, is now. my coffee mug, brimming with love, clad with rasta men jumping, drumming, and leaping in excitement. in celebration, over coffee, i imagine.

the semester is bottlenecking finally...dead week. the week before finals. i am dancing around my lengthy list of deadlines and due dates like a trippy hippy, hoping they might magically disappear into thin air.

i dropped the ball yesterday, allowing all of the conflicting interests of my schedule and life squeeze the composure right out of me...after which, i found absolute sanctuary in chocolate.
yes, chocolate.
its really no wonder...chocolate conains phenethylamine..an alkaloid...similar to an amphetamine, releasing norepinephrine and dopamine. Okay...chocolate has psychoactive stimulating affects...without the guilt and come down. okay, i will take a handful please. also, chocolate contains the alkaloid theobromine...which shares similar effects of my one true love, caffeine.
the cherry on my chocolate sundae is that, aside from being linked to increased seratonin levels, it lowers your blood pressure...., contains a crapload of antioxidants which reduce the formation of free radicals...so its a healthy stimulant.
which is why mochas almost make me cry....the officiating of caffeine and chocolate into one hot beverage. renders me speechless..

finding purpose

i went to an art exhibit tonight. ceramics. my camera phone is the best its gonna get for pictorals... pretty sweet stuff....



i always enjoy artists' speeches...and i actually don't even know his name. shucks. but i liked what he had to say about his ceramics. he said....that it is all fire roasted and toasted. and that there is no set designated use for any of his pieces. use it any way you wish. just USE it, because once you begin really using it, you find your purpose for it, and begin to understand it. i like that.



and we were given a ceramic cup of our choice with bottomless wine for just showing up...even sawweeetttter. i am appreciative.

chocolate and spinning

awwww....
i have to premise this entry with two things.
firstly, this coffee is so amazing that i just really don't know what to do with myself. organic yellowstone french roast...i am so in happy coffeeland right now.
secondly, GOOD MORNING!
sun is out, the sun is radiant as a matter of fact, she is pulling all the stops this morning, equipped with a full arsenal of gleams, glimmers, and glints. in an attempt, in my opinion, to sabatoge all of jack frosts hard work... and so it goes...

i rose early this morning. put on my eskimo gear, stepped outside and breathed in the stars. the gym met me like an in law....bitter sweet. it felt good to run, albeit 6 a.m. nice. slow. steady. sweet part.
and then came spinning. the instructor just returned from the iron man in arizona. yeah. bad A. during warm up, steady stories flowed of 77 year old men finishing the race, of the first double amputee finishing (thats NO quads NO hams PARTIAL glutes=AMAZING), of an 82 year old nun finishing....sister something....that one slipped....
so, naturally, our class recieved a smack down beating this morning. no sissy class nonsense, straight up tortuous in and out of consciousness dripping wet insanity. whose harebrained idea was this? bitter part.
admittedly, the feeling that followed was kinda post-coital. which is totally sweet. sweet like chocolate that remedies as well.

so life is good. the rainbow i color gets brighter and brighter every day. and the taste gets sweeter.